First things first, yesterday was one of my better days because I finally got hired. Anyway, of course the first person I called was my mom and I think she’s 50% happy and 50% surprised about what happened. I can’t blame her, I was surprised as well with everything happening so fast. Who did I call after my mom? Her, and I was so pleased because she felt exactly what I was feeling. She even broadcasted it on various social networks. It brings me so much joy because finally my life will have a direction. Getting employed leads to numerous things like building my career, knowing what’s it like in the real word, budgeting my salary and obviously I would be able to treat her like her a princess. Buy her the things that she want, take her to different restaurants, travel to far away places… Not that I’m saying that money is an issue but everything would simply be better and all the plans that I made for her in my head can soon turn into a reality. I forgot to mention one thing, although it may sound insignificant, yesterday before I started my interview she texted good luck and told me that she loves me. I was really surprised because ever since I started getting her back, there was not a single time in which she was the first one who said I love you. There were even times that when I mention those words she would respond by saying okay and thank you. Naturally, there’s nothing wrong with that given the fact that we’re not together but can you blame me for feeling hurt whenever she doesn’t respond? I think you can because like I mentioned earlier from my other posts, I’m the reason why everything is what it is now. I don’t even think she misses me anymore for the reason that whenever I tell her that I miss her, she would react to it as if it were a joke. Now I’m saying that I miss her even though we’ll be seeing each other later. I miss her not because of the length that we spent apart but because of the things that I did when we were away from each other that I wish she was there.
This coming weekend is going to suck, first I’ll be going to Pampanga for my cousin’s wedding then on the following day to Batangas for my Grandma’s birthday. Not that I don’t want to go or anything, I’m happy for my cousin because she will be the first one to be married on my mom’s side and for my grandma as well because clearly it’s her birthday, it’s just that I won’t get to see and spend time with her. Knowing that my bum days are numbered, I want to spend as much time as I can with her because when work starts, my time will be constrained. I was suppose to do something special for her tomorrow but I guess that won’t be a possibility due to some reasons that I will find out later when we’re together. This leads me to think of countless things where I always presume the worst.
